Unbearable Suffering: My Struggle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, similar to electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition often start with intense pain behind a single eye that persists up to three hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like several triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts propose unusual remedies for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with acute treatment alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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David Martin
David Martin

A reflective writer and storyteller passionate about exploring human experiences through personal narratives and daily observations.